She’d loved her as a sister, since they were little girls

But it seemed like they died at that pier.

The hope she’d been clinging to for the last few weeks had been for nothing.

She was gone and an imposter was in her place.

The ice in her words sent chills down her spine.

She expected with the screaming, the sobs, and the gut wrenching pleas to make it all go away

It would have held an unimaginable amount of pain,
but they still would have held love,

Regardless of how broken it might have been.

Standing in front of her was the opposite of love yet it wasn’t hate,
as many would believe, it was indifference the shattering result of a betrayal

So deep that the only way to survive was too simply shut down.

Letting nothing in, especially not a single fond memory.

Remembering the good only added to the destruction of the bad

Sometimes forgiveness was just too hard to give

At the same time too hard to ask for.

And that’s what was happening between them, they both knew it.

One was closing off her heart while the other was silently allowing it,

Her guilt and regret leaving her absolutely hopeless wanting better for her friend.

With a parting look of determination, She left by all accounts, her life

A friendship that started with laughter, comfort, hours upon hours of endless talks

Ended with no more than a few rudeness filled sentences weak hearted pleas.

How could something so vital to them for these entire years end with such a whimper?
Maybe it was because for all they suddenly had lost it didn’t spoil the fact they had known each other for most of their lives and with that much history words were rarely necessary.
With one shared look you could confirm or deny anything,
you could forgive and forget everything,
but one thing that you couldn’t change was the unspoken understanding that there was no going back.
You can’t deny what your eyes confirmed
you can’t forgive when your heart refuses to give way,
even when a part of you prays it will.